Posts Tagged ‘Love’

In Love

Posted: July 6, 2010 in Love
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I never knew that these would come along in the time in which I am already in the process of believing and accepting that fact, the hardcore reality; that I don’t have to be like these anymore. That time is running out for me and If I did not make any wise practical decision, I will no longer be able to get it back to where it should be. I am used to missed calls and unknown numbers in my handheld. But when this one appeared one rainy Friday morning, everything happened too fast that never gave me a chance to counter-react on my usual defensive instinct.

Yes you’re right. Another woman in my life comes into picture. Only this time, I am deeply affected or rather impacted by her presence. I was struck right away in the center of my weakest point, bulls-eye. Damnit! Never been like these before. I’m a cold-blooded Adam, I do not entertain ridiculous feelings of love and fantasies, romance and deep affections. I used to be always in a relationship which I don’t entertain expectations and regards to commitments. My basic simple philosophy is that, people come and go, and so girlfriends too. I managed to be a pro in letting go.

But hey, look at me. I am scared of my own creations. I am falling in love. Not falling, I am already in love. And I am scared to death. Why, I am sure you’re asking me why. Because my simple answer is that I don’t want to fall in love. It’s my one single weakness that until now, I am having hard times figuring it out on how I could possibly recover when everything goes haywire. I can’t imagine the pain of losing someone to another guy. Nor breaking up and letting the one you truly love go.

Call me insane but that is just who I am. No regards to the feeling of others when in a playful relationship but I admit that I am scared to death with the thoughts of falling crazily in love with someone. Not fair ha. Yeah, I am not fair and will not play fair to anyone.

But… This time, let’s see.

Anywhere, everywhere, all over you can think of. When you think of the word LOVE, it’s RED. Literally, because our “physical” heart pumps up blood that makes it red rest everything that brings other colour can paint love. But are all of you aware that RED too carries the colour of PAIN, ANGER and SUFFERING among the few. It is also the very same colour that symbolizes GUILT, the colour of the SIN and therefore the colour of LUST.

Did you tried to search for the true colour of love? What is the colour that can truly paint your love?
You give red roses, red tulips and other flowers that has red colour. You choose them because you therefore believe that it is the colour that expresses love. But did you ask yourself, Is my love pure and for real? Shouldn’t it be white, or any other colour that exists?

You celebrate love during occasions in certain part of the year and you bought red cards, red coloured gifts, red neon bulbs, you wear red clothing and other things that has red on it. But aren’t you guilty of something for wearing red? Isn’t it symbolizes too that lust shouting inside of you? Isn’t it for the guilt that you’ve been carrying for such a long time?

Every other thing on the universe has its own colour. Some are true and some are not. Few are pure and most fades away. Others are red and some are blue. There are also few that are not true.

We select the colour unknowingly. We just simply go with the trend. Whatever surrounds you, you just follow. You forgot to look deep who really you are. Like love, we just say I Love You but our heart is with somebody else at the back of our mind. Is that the real you?

So If I do ask you, what colour of love do you have?

What colour are you?

Have you encounter such case before. You’re being held because you’re being blackmailed emotionally? You can’t get out of an already dead and no longer working relationship because of emotional distress which threatens with unexpected outcome? The common terms for which told at the beginning, no expectations, no commitment, no nothing, will be effective no more and will only backfire to you with lightning speed.

The question is, how can you get out? How can you get rid yourself on this situation without any fear of unforeseen actions? Of course, not those kind of fear for myself, but fear that she might do something stupid.

I was once there before. Because of bad communications, it ends up that I called it quits (with my girlfriend that time) at the middle of Magsaysay Blvd while jeepneys and cars are threatening our own existence. When I left her at that portion of the highway, she did chase me that almost took her life. That’s terrible and I am so stupid that time. And I don’t want to be on that situation again.

Now, I feels that history might repeat itself again. Maybe not that bad, maybe worst than that.

Geez, what the fuck am I getting into.

Love At First Sight…

Posted: February 17, 2010 in Romance
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Happy Valentines Day to all. Remember to celebrate this day differently from usual days. I know most of you will say, everyday can be Valentines day, you’re right. But that is why there are seasons. There are seasons of joy and happiness and there is a season of love and its called Valentines Day.

You can celebrate it with your mom, your parents or your sister and brother. You can celebrate with your cousins or with your friends. If you do have a fiancee or your dating someone, make it completely unique against those usual days that you are dating. Candle light dinner is common. Maybe a walk at the park or walking barefooted at the beach suited you best. Go to your house roof or at the rooftop, and watch for the falling stars at night.

Anyway, whatever your plan is, its good to hear that you will celebrate 14th of February with your heart and with someone you dear most.

Me, I’m gonna celebrate it with some slices of pizza and few DVDs together with my sorround sound system, 42″ HDTV and my sweet couch.

Happy Hearts Day to All….

Valentines Day Story

3 days before 14th, to have a date both hearts agreed
One heart is excited while the other is a bit scared
Its HER first time to go for a date, perhaps careless she should not be
While HE is searching the whole metro, almost to find a perfect gift
This young pretty girl at the shop, to HIM sweetest smile she gave
One’s excited heart vanished, strange feelings struck the boy so hard
Before the sun hides against the moon, text messages, turns busy their phone
2 days before that date, the first timer finally feels at ease
Her destiny is already written and this boy will be her gift
With friends she seek advise, what to wear, for he to be impressed
She will need no material gift to wrap, for her untouched soul and flesh
The best gift the boy could possibly get
1 day before that date, in a room cast’s the shadows of two souls
Swaying to the tempo of unknown melody, swimming the waves without the sea
Several hours after, the storm calm down and melody stop
Both lips are still locked, their faith sealed upon first time they met
On that date, 14th of the month, the day most of hearts awaits and see
On a dress white fine silk, carries a price every boy could be envy
Her friends were excited, full of praises the girl receives
The beauty has emerged for the boy she loves the most she wants to be
On that date, 14th of the month, hour’s passes by, the gate sees no one, the door remains quiet
The boy is still nowhere, no messages has been received
Friends starts to worry, no more, the first dreamed date
Preparations will be nothing, by reckless heart, quickly all will be ruined
On that date, 14 of the month, the moon shines above the teary eyes
Several pieces the heart was torn, broken and tormented with unspeakable pain
Between sobs, escape, the girl thought the rope is the only way
On that date, 14th of the month, two heart’s celebrating while the other stops beating

Swaying Emotions

Posted: August 24, 2009 in Living Life
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You’ll never know when it would come to your feet. Before the next sunrise clears your entire foggy mind, you will find yourself on the verge of risky thoughts that only visit once in your dreams. And then your nights will become endless, too long yet but short. Your days will be short yet are too long to endure. There are happiness hearing those voices that sounds like melodies and there are enjoyment and satisfaction whenever you exchanges vivid words of inspirations. The seemingly impossible remoteness between two earthly souls will appears to be just one full length of a hand that can give a one bear hug thru the entire time. But, as the sunset is emerging from the east, fragile it become and weakness arises from within. The fear of losing will overwhelmed the entire spirit of once with a stronger heart and misunderstanding will be triggered by unknown swaying emotions that will lead nowhere but to the disaster all along been waiting from the very beginning the first hello has broken the silence between two purple hearts.